~ HeLL0 R0mAnTiC0 ~

11 Januari 2010 ( Isnin) - 11.45pm

waktu berpisah:-

gf: shafiq...thanks sangat2 ari nie...bye. (dengan nada gembira)

bf: wokeh. happy birthday. (tersenyum). eh...orang terjumpa kad tadi. ada tulis nama ila. (sambil hulur kad)

gf: ........................ (terkejut, terharu, senyum sorang2)

tiba- tiba dia bertindak romantik. impress. excited =))

even it's only a birthday card. means a lot to me. coz kad tersebut ditulis oleh orang tersayang. dengan rasa kasih sayang untuk orang tersayang.hehe. I really appreciate it dear busyuk2... boleh pulak buat innocence ea.hehe.x0x0 =D.

* tamat di sini ayat2 jiwang...heee.... * * bermula ayat2 serius =p *

apa ada pada 22 tahun???
usia sudah meningkat, tapi perangai masih macam budak- budak. as my age increases, i think the more childish i've become.apa boleh buat?hehe.

sekarang saya sudah mula untuk think about future seriously. about my education, my relationship, my LIFE. only one thing that always disturb me- my self confidence! saya selalu terfikir, boleh ke saya teruskan? boleh ke saya capai impian?

but now, i know i have to make a good decision. i've always thought that things aren't going to be fair in the real world. even if karma happenned. it's just the way it is. sometimes fate just can't stop meddling. there are some people that can achieve bright future without doing much but some, like me have to fight well in achieving good life.

this year, i just hold on to this principle, "do not afraid of life, follow your instinct, and be yourself!" and that really give me a boost of strength. I didn't see it coming, but I can definitely feel it. I long for the strength.

p/s: also need prayer from all =))

~ HiDDeN ~

men are very weak
they make principle but dun realize dat no principle can override the heart
n we remind these stubborn men that bonds of the heart are based on feelings n not principles
but these bonds are created by telling the other person bout one's inner feelings

however sumtimes saying wat one feels can break one's heart
but by not saying it,u won't be happy
so wat're we supposed to do...

~ AkaN DiCaPai ~

2010 sudah bermula...azam baru pun dah ditetapkan...harap terlaksana...

hopes in education:
1) tak malas nak pergi kelas...nie niat pagi2 bangun tido asyik nak ponteng kelas jea.haish.

2) tak stress lagi dgn 1 subjek major nie.sangat kritikal dengan subjek nie.camne subjek nie boleh wujud (?_?)

3) pointer kena naik lagi...asyik statik jea... *memang laa tak naik klo asyik main2 ;p*

4) assingment.ape tips nak siapkan assingment awal2? nie habit selalu nak buat keje las minit.hehe

-setelah disenaraikan, rupanya sifat malas amat tebal dalam diri saya.ish3.

hopes in relationship:
1) harap dapat luang masa dengan family sangat2.mau pergi vacation sama2.huu...

2) dapat ronggeng dengan bff saya puas2.next year maybe dah jarang lepak2.

3) dapat kad jemputan kawen kawan2. mau makan nasi minyak.hehe

4) dengan busyuk2 saya, sangat harap saya dapat memahami kam000.

- social skill & relationship saya still perlu di 'upgrade' (@_@)

after all, this year is a fresh start for me. with new plans and new strategies in my life. I do hope this year akan jadi lebih bermakna dengan sweet and bad memories that will remain in my thought =))

# SELAMAT TAHUN BARU SEMUA #

p/s: baru jea bazirkan duit untuk shopping di hari pertama new year.haish.camne nak blaja bjimat nie.hee...

~ YoU mAkE mE FeeL _Ad

You have changed...

I don't know why... I just feel different.
Your words seem rude to me... your attitude seems harsh to me.
There's no more great and sincere laughter between us.

You think I'm mad at you...No, I don't.
I'm just mad at myself...Just because...
I can't understand you anymore. I guess I never do.
Even how hard I keep on trying.

After all, I think it's me that have changed!!!
Yeah, it's me.
For being such sensitive and emotional girL...
I just can't lie to myself....

p/s: sowry 11x =(

~ wHaT a Day ~

i've been robbed...

now I know what is the feeling of losing something that quite important
when you have it you seem to take it for granted
but once you lose it, you will regret it
serve me right...

the incident gave quite an impact to me
but then through the incident also I come to realize something
I could get to know the people that will be supporting me and the group that will ignore me
thanks a lot guys for the concern...
I appreciate it s0000 much =))

~ H0pE d SkY iS aLwAyS bLuE ~

twinkle twinkle little stars

I always prefer to look at the sky when I have bad feelings about my life.The sky is so wide, the moon and the stars just make me feel better.How great the creations of God.

Life without problems is not cool right?So I guess I have to bear with all the troubles that are competing to rush into my life.Yet, the most troublesome dilemma is when it is related with your feelings.How could I ignore others' feelings?Can I be that selfish?Just thinking of it makes me feel guilty.

My father used to tell me that memory is a good thing to be remembered, either it was the good one or the bad one.But papa, your daughter is not strong enough to bear with all of the memories in her life.I try hard to delete all the bad memories in my mind.I wish I have a quite large and enough space of dustbin to dispose all the memories.How fool I am to think something like that.But I know I actually have to learn from the bad memories.For better future.So that I will never repeat the same mistakes again.Thanks for your advice papa.Your daughter understands the situation now =)

To my Soulmate, sorry for giving you a lot of troubles. I know I have to understand you better. I need to be more mature person.How childish I am right?And I have to struggle hard to maintain this feeling towards you.Saya masih bertahan dear.

Sekarang, listening to Love You Yes-Couple::while looking at the sky::finish this entry.Now I feel relieve and great.

Hope the night sky will always been occupied by the moon and the stars ;D

~ FiGhTiNg SpiRiT ~

waaa...lepas da struggle nak check result.dengan website buat hal...lagi bertambah berdebar nak tau result.tp Alhamdulillah...hasil yang tidak berapa mengecewakan.sume lulus...hehe...
pointer pown bley tahan sikit walaupun memang rase macam hancur jea sem nie...ada 1 subjek yang agak mengganggu prestasi. tapi da nasib coz banyak bermain dan kurang fokus.so memang konfem kena struggle lebih utk new sem...haishhh...kalau tak mesti kecewa...huhu

sekarang baru nak sedar yang time belajar main2 sangat...bila da dapat result yang cukup-cukup makan jea baru nak insaf...sebelum ini takde pulak terfikir ape akibat kalau tak fokus.apa boleh buat...da memang kebanyakan ragam pelajar sebegitu rupa.time exam or kuiz jea baru nak bukak buku ;p.selain dari waktu genting camtu,enjoy laa kan...hehe...how i wish i can be more hardworking student.

p/s: yet, still have to struggle for next sem. * fighting everybody ;)) *