~ LOSER? you're not worth it ~

i had a conversation this evening. with some guys.

what do i expect? more relaxation and less hedges? it's surely a no indeed. they do gossip too...much way hotter than women. i think. it's sure would be a lie if i told that i've never gossiping about anything. yes, i did. but it just feels wrong when you're gossiping about anything, with the guys. especially about your own gender matter.

a girl had coincidentally sitting beside our table. she's cute and stylish. the guys agreed too. but then came her friend. wrong place at the wrong time. at the moment, the guys then asked me what do you think was the size of the friend. she's quite plum but still cute. and they make a lot of jokes about her. how sick is that. what do i answer? grow up people! at least she has size and doesn't have a mouth like you!

it's not like i'm being close minded. it's not like she is the same gender with me. and it's not like you're my friend. it's just you being a loser. and how do you fix that?

~ HeY GirL, I h.a.t.e y0u ~

I've told you so many many many times....

takkan boleh punya lelaki dan perempuan berkawan takat "Teman tapi Mesra". tipulah lagi. Last-last mesti jatuh hati. so for what stupid purpose pakai statement 'kitorang kawan jea lah, takkan lebih dari tu, tak main feeling-feeling nie. aku takkan kacau pun hubungan diorang lah"

Stop coming in between other's relationship!It's just not about you, it's about your bitchyness.

yes, I don't get it.  and I don't want to. just hoping to get rid of people like you.

~ PAPA.... I'll aLwaYs HeaRt YoU ~

sewaktu kaki terseliuh


sebab nakal sangat maen-maen kat semak. papa mengatakan dengan tegas: " yang pergi maen kat semak tu sape suruh. ada kawasan lapang nak jugak pergi kat situ" (hati terluka)

tiap-tiap pagi bangun tidur, saya pasti akan panggil mama nak minta tolong turun tangga. tiap-tiap kali pasti papa yang akan datang menggendong saya turun tangga. diri tidak pernah dibiarkan turun sendiri. (hati terubat)

sewaktu sakit


papa pasti akan sedikit membentak: "sudah diberitahu bekali-kali jangan minum air sejuk, jaga makan!"
( diri tahu papa sangat bimbang di saat itu )

sewaktu melanjut pelajaran di universiti


papa hanya kakukan diri sewaktu diri memeluknya. sambil memberi nasihat, menyuruh jaga diri & belajar bersungguh-sungguh.
( diri tahu papa ingin memberi kekuatan di saat itu )

sewaktu berjumpa dengan teman lelaki


papa pasti akan berlagak 'cool' tapi mengekalkan status seorang ayah yang tegas.
( diri tahu ada sekelumit cemburu di hati papa )

sewaktu keluar dengan lelaki

hati papa akan mengeras dan memarahi diri. "papa tak suka lelaki-lelaki itu"
( diri tahu papa sangat risau akan keselamatan diri di saat itu)

dear papa,

walaupun diri akan meninggalkan papa suatu hari nanti & mungkin jarak akan menjadi satu masalah. YOU will be the only man that I truly, deeply & madly in love with. I'll never leave you alone and please don't be sad.

LoVe,
your troublesome daughter.

~ tHe cLimB ~

it was exhausting but super duper exciting...

how can I describe the feeling of being up there?

the air was so cool

the sceneries were eye-soothing

the heart feels a sense of tranquility

the companions were so amazing.

mesmerizing, comfort and humility, perhaps.

how great of His creation.

peeps, you should try too =)

to be with nature...

is the chance you have to grab

once in your life.

experience it, then you can feel it ;)

~ cHeAtiNg HearT ~

forgiveness is never easy.

kita senang untuk membenci, mudah untuk dengki. but forgiveness, that is a tough one. sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back. sometimes we do things we can't take back. but how can we know that the action is unintended? why don't we think deeply before making the action?

we're all making mistakes. I make mistake. sekarang saya tahu apa yang saya buat bukanlah diri saya. unburden yourself from the mistakes of the past. and when you do, hati pasti akan jadi lebih kuat. I should know, and you should too. I was supposed to realize it a long time ago. but it doesn't mean that what you have done is forgotten.

we're all afraid of something. I was afraid. but what I have done is done. if in any case, saya dah melukakan hati kamu, kamu atau kamu. saya minta maaf. hanya maaf yang saya mampu pinta. even I know it's may not worth it.

~ EcHoEs oF MiRacLe ~

Voiceover by Peyton, Lucas, Brooke, Nathan and Haley: 

Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart.

do not ever lose hope, because there will always be miracles for you =)

~ Ruang Pertama ~

ada sesetengah orang lebih menghargai pasangan masing-masing berbanding kawan,  dan ada yang sebaliknya.

luckily, I own the best for both and I am grateful. terima kasih kawan. terima kasih untuk semua. =)