" I LOVE HER "

one day, Bella Gilbert brought her boyfriend, Edward to her family dinner.

while Bella was helping her mother in the kitchen, Edward was left with Mr. Gilbert to do the barbecue. Edward was very nervous and trying very hard to bring up comfortable conversation with Mr. Gilbert. but after a moment of silent, Edward was awakened with a conversation that he will never forget. only with a simple question, a sincere answer  and lead to a meaningful outcome.

Mr. Gilbert: do you love my daughter?

Edward: Yes Sir, with all my heart.

Mr. Gilbert: Good. then you should always remember that during your hard time with her. always.


People says mothers are much more connected with their children.
but, I guess fathers also have their own instinct. even they rarely show in front of the children.
or maybe never shown at all.

somehow, I think that is rather sweet and charming sides of you, dear fathers  :)

~ MiRRoR tEsT ~

I am a big believer in the "mirror test".

All that matter is if you can look in the mirror and honestly tell the person you see there, that you've done your best.

my career life has give me new challenge that there is time when I feel to give up. undeniably, I realize we have had our ups and downs but that is what makes us different. Even though you may want to move forward in your life, there always something holding you back. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.

After all, we survived, we're still here. That is when you know nothing can actually break you apart, it just makes you stronger and I honestly would not have it any other way.

for now, I'm learning to be free.

~ when LoVeRs become StRaNgeRs ~

am currently listening to Coldplay songs. the songs always sooth me. like you're surrounded by the beauty of nature and there's nothing to bother you.

I read somewhere that if you're going to cry, you can recite the colour of things to make it stop. green tree, yellow skirt, blue sky, blue jeans, blue eyes. it may work sometime, but not all the time. how I miss to talk to someone. it's amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you fell about them in an instant. small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. it changes everything. nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don't know it. and I don't blame you for questioning why people fall in love.

the truth is, strangers became friends for some unknown reasons. some friends become lovers eventually. then, when lovers cannot work things out and break-up, almost always, they end up becoming total strangers again. it has been a cycle. and it must not be.

it's such a shame when lovers become strangers.

Can You FeeL the Magic?

I met you for a reason

the greatest weakness of most human is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they are still alive.


if you like someone, if seeing his or her makes you happy and if you feel like you know his or her even without talking, then don't let that someone go. in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly who you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what you have, the right person will think the sun shines out of your ass. that's the kind of person that is worth sticking with.  


and now d distance has become a challenge to us. as last time you told me, missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are at least one day closer to the next time you will see them. 


that's what I've been hold on until now and I hope the next time I see us, we can make the best of it.

compassionate ~

honestly, I don't have much feeling to celebrate Raya this year.

master degree saya masih dalam proses application. hampir putus asa dengan proses yang agak menyukarkan kerana faktor jarak. hidup mengalami perubahan drastik tapi kosong. i keep praying tapi manusia biasa lumrahnya memang suka mempersoalkan.

Ramadhan is such a blessed month. it brings hope to me. it makes me realize not to wonder  why Allah doesn't grant my wishes immediately as He also doesn't punish me immediately for all of my mistakes.for the mistake of questioning, of giving up easily, of losing hope. surely, You are most merciful.

for now, I am just being thankful and praying that I will meet Ramadhan again in next years. anyway, have a wonderful Eid celebration peeps :)

~ hYp0cRiTeS ~

now you'll realize when people stop talking to you, they'll start talking about you.and in the end you always go back to the people who where there for you in the beginning. when it comes to this situation, I salute the above quote.

~ meLancHoLiC ~

he always told me that reality is nice. because he could met me.

I've known him forever. i know how he always like the idea of getting up in the morning and make a morning call to his lover. how he would rather not to smoke in front of his lover. he's considerate like that. though sometimes he will be an annoying person when he turns to an ignorance.

my thoughts somehow are always with you. I wonder what you're doing and who you're with.I wonder if you still love to go to karaoke when you feel stress. I wonder if you still go to movies while i'm not around. I wonder how your days have been. I always wonder every little thing about you.

you know why? because you are my anchor, my pillar, my strength, my hope, my universe and supremely my everything. I am glad the last time I saw you, you seem to be in perfectly-well condition. we were just fine.

then reality hits me.

I love you, you love her. 

now I vote one for reality is cruel.