Thursday, May 27, 2010

~ LyRiCs t0 mY LiFe ~

I wish that I was one of those people that:
the clouds always cleared for,
the sun always shined on,
and the stars always came out for.
I wish I was the reason they invented spotlights for,
the kind of person that people longed to be...
Oh, wouldn't that be nice?

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

~ wHeN iT's JuSt mE & y0u, wHo kNoWs wHaT wE c0uLd d0 ;) ~

ever have that person in your life that you just can't give up on? the one person that can screw you over time after time,but you always give them another chance and there is always another chance waiting for them.the person you know you're better off without but you can't seem to let them go. having this person in your life,it doesn't make you weak, it just means you have a weakness. there is no way to stop loving them, so don't bother to try...but don't let them define your life, either. it's yours, and yours alone.

dear YOU,

I know you used to spend every day thinking about him and dreaming about him, and everytime he walked by you lost yourself, I might not know what that feels like. And I couldn’t possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. Look, I'm sorry if you miss the way he looked at you, but I think you shouldn't miss that.

Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or say to him... when he comes running back... when he needs you again... you'll be there... right there waiting for him, you'll take him back... no questions asked. Sad isn't it?

but dear YOU,

Some people can just move on, you know. They mourn and cry and then they're done with it or at least appear to be. But to you, I don't know. I didn't want to fix it; I didn't want you to forget it. It wasn't something that was broken, it was just something that happened. And I want you to find ways, everyday, of working around it. You're respecting and remembering it, but you should getting along with your life at the same time.

Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll never have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever though possible. Sometimes, change is too much to bear. But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.


Thursday, May 13, 2010

~ mEmBeSaR ~

i'm a teenage girl...

i have my good days and bad days, and sometimes i take it out on others. when my ipod is blasting, the rest of the world gets tuned out. i have a wonderful family which is so supportive and 'chaotic'. there's a boy that i can't seem to stop thinking about. he's the reason i always pay attention to my phone. i can't go a day without saying or doing something silly. i truly don't know what i would do without my friends, they know how to make me feel happy and always there for me. i can be stubborn, bitchy and little clueless at times.

sometimes, in one day, dozens of things go wrong...but when i step back and look at things clearly, i realize how much i truly appreciate life, with every imperfection.

you're gonna fly with every dream you chase, you're gonna cry, but know that that's okay. sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there, you're gonna see that sometimes bad is good. we just have to believe things will work out like they should. life has no guarantees, but always loved by me, you're gonna be =)

i know that i can't remain young, i know i have a lot to learn, and i just don't want to grow up too fast...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

~ EvErYtHiNg LeAvEs a MaRk ~

" Life is like an onion: you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep." - Carl Sandburg

semalam saya diuji, pastinya hari ini dan hari seterusnya saya akan diuji. kerana hidup adalah satu ujian.

in my life, i've been told the things i cannot do. all my life they will say i'm not good enough or strong enough or talented enough. they will say i'm in the wrong height or wrong weight or the wrong type to be this to achieve this. they will tell me no, a thousand times of "NO's", until all the "NO's" become meaningless. all my life they will tell me no, quite firmly and very quickly. and now it's the time to tell them yes.

i want to expect nothing. i just want to live frugally in surprise. as there are only two ways to live your life. one is as though nothing is a miracle. the other is everything is a miracle.

today, i'm gonna start to try a little harder, gonna make every minute last longer, gonna learn to live and forget, because i don't have long, gonna make the most of it. today i'm gonna love my enemies, reach out to somebody who needs me, make a change, make the world a better place because tomorrow could be one day too late.

every person leaves a mark. i just hope that i leave a good one.