Friday, November 29, 2013
~ Seeking Happiness ~
There is one moment in life when I am doing something and I feel like the world has stopped and my life seems so miserable. Does it break my heart? Of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of. I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all. Everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the thesis or heavy workloads, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go. Is ignorance bliss? I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think. And tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.
Then, one important event has led me into a thought. Things do sure fall apart but i'm sure they will definitely fall into right place. I finally grasped that unexpected things were always going to happen in life. And with that I realized the only control I had was how I chose to handle them. So, I made the decision to survive using courage, humor, and grace. It's never too late, now I'm on my way to seek for my happiness and I hope you are working on yours too :)
confession of ~ iEyLa mYa ~ at 9:51 AM