~ HoMe CoMiNg ~

late last night so far away.
I dreamed myself a dream.
and I dreamed I was all alone.

this morning, I woke up from my comfy bed.
well the sun was superb nice from my window view.
I said to myself: welcome Home.
I miss Papa's smile.
I long Mama's joke.
I miss homemade cooking.
I enjoy sibling's chat.

isn't it nice to be home again?
this is true heaven. you think this happens everyday?

~ sAyA bAnKrAp ~

saya di dalam dilema sekarang. ya. dilema. dilema kewangan.

ini gara-gara kereta a.k.a bumbleBEE saya. lepas dah habis rm300 beli satu 'barang keperluan', sekarang kereta nak bermanja-manja pula. oh, sebut pasal 'barang keperluan', nanti saya ceritakan. next post ok.hehe.
berbalik pada topik sebenar, selepas ditolak segala keperluan makanan, keperluan buku, dan kepeluan minyak hitam kereta, saya berada dalam kondisi yang amat berjimat. sampai nak shopping pun kena tahan nafsu yg berkobar-kobar. nak dating lagi lah kena bersabar, walaupun kadang-kadang tak sabar jugak sebenarnya.

alkisahnya, kereta tersebut sudah lanjut usianya dan enjinnye tetiba taknak hidup pulak. nak cakap tak cukup minum, minyak ada lagi. nie semua gara-gara minyak naik, kereta tu pun nk protes jugak kan. ada kaitan ke? selepas diteliti dari setiap penjuru dan bertanya pada yang pakar, sudah dipastikan bateri kereta ada masalah.
ingatkan lepas recharge, boleh start dah. sekali kena tukar baru daaa ~ ingatkan murah je. memang berangan lah. approximate rm120 -rm150 utk harga bateri tu.haish. memang menduga betul kalau pasal maintenance bumbleBEE nie. so, terpaksa lah lebih kental menahan segala nafsu dan keinginan untuk berbelanja. so, sesiapa yang nak membuat amal, derma anda amat dialukan ;)

~ sYaBaS Harimau Malaya!!!! ~

AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 finals : Malaysia beat Indonesia 3-0 in their first leg match played in National Stadium, Bukit Jalil :)

I'm glad that I could watch the match at the stadium. the Malaysian players were great even Indonesian players tried to make 'interesting scene' during the play. high salute to the players especially the hero, Safee Sali. like you more lah...hehe. however, there's still bad attitudes from the crowds. main lempar bunga api lah, mencarut tak tentu pasal lah, campak botol air lah. haish...shame...shame...grow up people. kalau setakat datang tengok bola nak bikin situasi, baik minum hot chocolate sambil tengok kat rumah. mana hilang semangat kesukanan penyokong Malaysia tadi. but then, great job, players from both team. harap-harap match kat Indonesia nanti fair & square lah yerk.

Hero Harimau Malaya: Safee Sali - moga jadi lebih hebat di Bung Karno!

Malaysia Boleh! ceh, tetiba baru ada semangat patriotisme ;)

~ HeLLo FiNaL yEaR ~

new semester has started. I'm taking only 13 credit hours this semester. but, the subjects sure are killing me:

• topics for islamic literature
• world literature
• language for occupational purpose
• linguistics for literature
• arabic
• automotive skill

see. the literature subjects are much more than the linguistics subject. me likey ^_*. linguistics can bring pressure to me at some time even I am majoring in combination.

bersempena sem baru, kena ada azam. so, for this new sem, I aim to study in relax mode. why? because I have to enjoy every moment of it =). buat ape nak stress kan...final sem kot.hik3. another aim is to have a super good time with my friends. iyelah...nanti dah tak berpeluang nak beronggeng dan berfoya-foya lagi kan.. yosh...what's the most important is I have to maintain my achievement. hopefully. for those who are also in final year, lets get through this year with satisfaction.yeah. good luck everybody!!! 

~ m0mEnTs ~

above are the only pictures that I have during my one month holiday. I guess I spend more time at home even though it seems nothing beneficial that I've done. it's good to spend time with your family and friends. or I rather say it was an awesome moment. because I might not be able to spend those precious moment again. everyone will be graduating. friends will have their own future to think of. there may no time to hang out soon. so, I really appreciate my final year as an undergraduate student because I know I will miss this journey the most. the time where I was late for handing my assignments, the period when I was taking the killer subjects, the time when I wanted to release all the stress. I am grateful that I have my friends. thank you  =)

~ a PROMISE made should be a PROMISE kept ~

semua orang suka bagi janji kan? atas macam-macam sebab. ada sebab nak tenangkan hati, ada yang nak menjaga hati, ada yang nak menarik hati. yang penting semua berkaitan dengan hati.hehe. tapi boleh ke semua janji tu dipercayai? sebab ada yang tipu sunat, dan ada juga yang memang tipu betul. macam mana nak bezakan tu?

i hate promises, actually. because i tend to fully believe in it.

janji buat saya letak harapan yang tinggi, janji buat saya berangan jauh, janji buat saya anggap fantasi boleh jadi realiti. itu kesan janji pada saya. saya? memang jarang berjanji sebab saya bimbang janji saya akan memberi kesan yang buruk.

cuma satu yang saya asyik fikir pasal janji.  janji lelaki. ada orang cakap, lelaki suka bagi janji manis. orang yang cakap, bukan saya. betul ke? selalu janji lelaki mesti macam ni kan:

1) saya janji saya sayang awk sorang jea.


2) cuma awak sorang jea dalam hati saya. memang xde yang lain dah. saya janji.


3) saya taknak orang lain, nak awak jugak.


4) saya nak sayang awak sorang jea seumur hidup saya. sampai saya mati.

so, boleh percaya ke? kalau dah putus hubungan, mana dah sayang awak kat saya dulu?
kalau saya dah takde, kenapa awak cari yang lain juga?
kalau orang lain ngorat awak, kenapa cinta awak tergugat juga?

this post is not a matter of personal. yes, indeed. but i just wonder what about your promises to me? hope they are really true. because mine are all true :)

~ Graduation Dinner ~

12/11/2010: pre-graduation dinner

*satu momen yang boleh dijadikan kenangan*

several months to go. dan bakal bergelar graduan. insyaAllah. hooray!


p/s: kredit to jae & freddy

~ EcHoEs oF MiRacLe ~

Voiceover by Peyton, Lucas, Brooke, Nathan and Haley: 

Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart.

do not ever lose hope, because there will always be miracles for you =)

~ sYaWaL mEnJeLmA ~

1st time dapat kad raya dari incik bf. hepi terlebey2. mengada!

oh...oh seronoknya berada di rumah...

finally dah cuti balik raya

walaupun balik paling lambat kan...

still HOME SWEET HOME =)

untuk raya semua persiapan dah siap. erk? iye kot. tema tahun nie tak dapat ditentukan. sebab dah campur macam-macam warna. ada ungu, ada ala2 oren, ada pink shining2. makin tua sambut raya makin melilau mata nak pilih warna baju raya.ish3.... sebelum balik raya, wajib pergi jalan TAR bawak balik buah tangan untuk family. trime kaseh laaaa buat cik jae a.k.a gff & kekanda sebab sanggup temankan walau terpaksa mengharungi hujan & badai....ceh3

syawal kali nie, ada yang seronok & ada yang tak seronok. yang seronoknya sebab masih lagi boleh sambut dengan family tersayang. cukup kuota semua. takde yang kawen or lari umah ke. n sebab sehari sebelum raya ada special day...hehe.

yang tak seronoknya sebab pasti akan terasa kehilangan saudara yang pergi menyahut seruan Ilahi dahulu. tahun ni, ketiadaan nenek saudara yang terchenta pasti akan dirasai... semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. amin.

buat mereka yang berada di perantauan pula, semoga bertabah yerk. salam lebaran dari Malaysia.hehe.

apa-apa pun, harapnye tahun ni akan mendapat lebih keberkatan. dan semoga masih dapat menempuh Ramadhan yang akan datang. doakan yang terbaik untuk semua =)

anyway, nak ucapkan:

SELAMAT HATI RAYA AIDILFITRI 

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

JIKA TERSILAP KATA / TERSINGGUNG PERASAAN

SEMOGA BERBAHAGIA DI HARI RAYA INI =D

kad raya instant taon lepas. recycle balik. harap maklum ;p

p/s: 0-0 wokeh.harap2 duit raya makin bertambah dari tahun sebelum ni.amin ;)

O.N.E

kita isi empty spaces dengan empty words

hanya kerana...

kita tidak mahu menghadapi semua kekosongan dalam diri

we fill the silence with empty sounds.

BUT THEN...

I don't know where it comes from but it's what I hold on to.

and I can't let go

sumwhere inside me, I noe that it always wanted me.

but then maybe it just got lost

and now I will never feel empty, never feel silence.

as it has reached me. all I have to do is listen.

because it now surrounds us.

all we have to do is LISTEN. with our heart.

~ Journey For HAPPYness ~

I love lists. I always write assignment lists, shopping lists, movies-to-watch lists, books-to-read lists, wish lists, and most famously, the ever present, things-to-do lists.

today, while writing my to-do list, I realized that sometimes I will make some note at the bottom. either "good luck" , "fighting!" or "find happiness". but then I realized that sometimes I write "make happiness". I began to ponder the actions of my subconscious. I know this sounds like something lacking much substance. but I wondered why the difference? I went searching through my purse and drawer - found some older lists. sometimes I wrote "hold on!", sometimes "smile more often =)". of course there is mix up between "find and make happiness". but then something surprised me. sometimes, ever so simply, I've penned "LOVE yourself"


these little notes written to me don't contain words of wisdom, they aren't written eloquently and they aren't written with any talent. but I do think that they hold meaning and truth. it's funny what our head does when it's reacting to the heart. maybe one of these days I'll stop shoving the lists into my bag and start listening to what my heart is trying to have me to see.



   

~ DoN't sToP BeLieViNg ~

Life is full of secrets.

but do you know what the secret of life is? one thing. just one thing. you stick to that and everything else doesn't mean shit.

that's what you've to figure out...

~ wHo aRe YOU? ~

it's undecided. STRANGER? HUMAN? STRANGER? HUMAN?

there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad. afraid, confused, lonely, without a roadmap. the choices we make in those moments might prevent us from getting lost. of course when we faced with the unknown, kita sering turn around and go back then, how could we find our way?

so, maybe I was wrong in thinking that strangers sangat menakutkan and that strangers are weird. but I know this much, if I don't meet strangers, I wouldn't have found people that are worth to be friends. and if we were supposed to be foes, then it was the most beautiful mistakes I've ever made. and if I hadn't met this stranger, I wouldn't be the same person I am today ;)

when you look back at your picture collections, sometimes you might come across a picture of yourself and a stranger in the background. and you might wonder how many strangers have the pictures of you. just by thinking of that, you could be a big part in someone's life or might bring huge surprise for someone. yet, you not even know about it.

now, how interesting strangers could be?
so, dear strangers, friends, foes, lovers....how do we meet actually?

* past: stranger in the background =) *

* present: someone important..hee =D *

* future: to be determined??? =p * 

~ Don't Let LoVe Becomes Ugly ~

budak-budak zaman sekarang bercinta macam-macam kerenah. ada yang cover-cover malu, ada yang terlebih eksyen, ada yang cover-cover tapi nak eksyen...eh? so tetibe kali nie nak share sikit trend orang bercinta yang agak annoying bagi saya yerk. ulangan. pada pandangan saya sahaja.


1) pasangan on phone


time berchenta nie, orang kata bagai dunia korang yang punya. semua rasa macam indah. sampai hal orang lain pun dah tak kisah. kalau cakap telefon dalam LRT tu nak bagi satu LRT tau korang tengah hangat berchenta and pasangan korang tu romantik habis. tapi bila time bergaduh, kalau boleh nak maki hamun dalam phone biar semua orang dengar korang tengah kecewa. tak cukup dengan tu, siap letak dalam blog announce laki tu jahat lah, keji lah, dan seangkatan dengannya.




2) pasangan di 'mukabuku'


trend nie memang popular pada alaf yang berteknologi nie...iyelah...apa guna status relationship kalau taknak tayang kan? (iye ke?). perlu ke nak post status kat mukabuku tu yang korang tengah masyuk sangat berchenta. nak share yang pasangan korang tu yang terbaik lah di bima sakti nie.huh.

puteri cantek > putera kacak : sayanggg...thanks for the surprise...b ske sgt...love u...syg ckit.mmuah3

putera kacak > puteri cantek: not a big deal b...asal u hepi. i ada u sorg jea k b...love u too.

kadang- kadang terfikir jugak apa motif sebenar  komen tu. y tak anta mesej kat phone jea? kalau kadang- kadang nak bermanja and tak overreact tu wokeh jea...takde lah smpai close minded sangat. tapi dah kalau asyik penuh dengan komen camtu jea kat home tu semak juga mata nie..hehe




3) pasangan di jalan raya


haaa...yang ini paling buat hilang sabar. kalau dalam kampus tu dah la kena pusing satu round, dah tu bawak kete tu slow pulak...konon berhemah tapi kalau dah drive kat lane laju tu tapi bawak macam baru nak blaja kete tu boleh nak kena hon tu. sekali dapat pintas, jeling sikit, haaa....tengah sakan gelak- gelak dengan pasangan. amboi...bahagia sangat dapat keluar sama sampai  tak tahu beza lane laju dengan lane orang tengah berchenta. 
ada yang lagi ' baek punye pasangan' siap lentok2 lagi...adoi...takpe nak manja2 pun...tak marah pun...macam lah saya tak pernah buat...oopppssss...heee...tapi kalau dah sampai kete2 laen pintas korang ikut sebelah kiri tu tak faham lagi ke korang dah kat salah lane tu!




4) pasangan di public places

• pakwe macho + awek kurang lawa                           huish....sekali tengok pakwe dia tu macam Damon dalam ' Vampire Diaries ', dua kali tengok macam   Nathan dalam ' One Tree Hill ', kali ketiga tak boleh tengok dah, takut jatuh cinta. apa nak jadi dengan kekanda saya nanti?hehe. wokeh.kembali kepada topik. pasal awek tu tak boleh nak describe macam pakwe pulak.wokeh.fine.rezeki dia lah boleh dapat pakwe hensem + macho macam tu, tapi tak payah sampai nak buat drama sebabak pulak. dah bila selisih, tetiba nak tarik tangan pakwe tu rapat2 and buat aksi menggoda supaya pakwe tak pandang lain. hello...ada saya cakap saya nak ngorat pakwe awak ke? i'm taken also k.

• awek lawa + pakwe kurang macho                                       yang nie pulak sama jea keadaan...jantina jea berubah. dah bila selisih tetiba rangkul gadis ke sisi. adeih...kalau kekanda saya nak ngorat awek awak tu, dia tak bersama saya. dah awak tu tengok saya takpe pulak?hahahaha ~  

• pakwe macho + awek lawa                                                     pasangan yang camnie tak boleh nak cakap banyak lah...dua2 nak kontrol masing2 punye pasangan. naseb baek sama cantek sama padan kurang sikit perasaan angin nie.lantak korang lah...kalau pasangan camnie susah sikit nak dibendung sebab jarang dijumpai...hehe  

• awek kurang lawa + pakwe kurang macho                                jenis pasangan camnie saya wokeh sangat sebab dua2 sedar diri. buat biasa-biasa jea. orang pun tak amek kisah sangat. so tak sakit mata memandang...darah pun tak tinggi =)  

                                                                                                                   

berchenta nie biar berpada-pada dan bersederhana. jangan melebih sangat. nanti merana diri. tak semestinya pasangan yang korang berchenta bertahun-tahun tu akan jadi suami / isteri korang nanti. wokeh?

~ sHouLd I FaLL foR y0u? ~

thou sometimes she acts weird, she still has a good point ;)

which monster should I choose to be then...

little red riding hood maybe ;D

~ 3 wEEkS iN w0nDeRLaNd ~

the hardest part about growing up is letting go of what you used to, and moving on with something you're not.

old memories seem to be most pleasant remembrance in our thought. old school, old friends, ex-lovers...but we are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives. or going to familiar places that give us that small twinge in our hearts and smiles on our faces. oh memori. ada yang indah. ada yg pahit. that makes it as one of the most bittersweet feelings.

enough has happenend that I've learned perkara cantik tak kekal cantik selamanya. there always comes a day when everything changes, and it's not always for the best. despite the fact that I consider everything is important- education, lover, oxygen, food... the most important thing in life is family. there are days you love them, and others you don't. but, in the end, they're the people you always come home to. sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself.

and I'm glad to be here for the next two weeks. it feels like heaven.

~ EvErYtHiNg LeAvEs a MaRk ~

" Life is like an onion: you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep." - Carl Sandburg

semalam saya diuji, pastinya hari ini dan hari seterusnya saya akan diuji. kerana hidup adalah satu ujian.

in my life, i've been told the things i cannot do. all my life they will say i'm not good enough or strong enough or talented enough. they will say i'm in the wrong height or wrong weight or the wrong type to be this to achieve this. they will tell me no, a thousand times of "NO's", until all the "NO's" become meaningless. all my life they will tell me no, quite firmly and very quickly. and now it's the time to tell them yes.

i want to expect nothing. i just want to live frugally in surprise. as there are only two ways to live your life. one is as though nothing is a miracle. the other is everything is a miracle.

today, i'm gonna start to try a little harder, gonna make every minute last longer, gonna learn to live and forget, because i don't have long, gonna make the most of it. today i'm gonna love my enemies, reach out to somebody who needs me, make a change, make the world a better place because tomorrow could be one day too late.

every person leaves a mark. i just hope that i leave a good one.

~ LiFe is BriEf ~

life is made up of meetings and partings. people come into your life everyday, you say good morning, you say good evening, some stay for a few minutes, some stay for a few months, some a year, others a whole lifetime. no matter who it is, you meet and then you part.

setiap pertemuan dan perpisahan yang Tuhan tentukan pasti ada sebabnya. dan di sebalik sebab- sebab itu pasti terselit hikmahnya. dalam bulan ini sahaja, saya mendapat lima berita tentang kematian orang tersayang kepada kawan-kawan saya. salam takziah kepada ahli keluarga mereka dan sama-sama kita sedekahkan al-Fatihah.

apa yang membuatkan saya terfikir, hidup ini tak panjang. sudah banyak perkara yang membuang masa yang dah dilakukan. ada waktu yang lebih banyak dihabiskan bersama teman berbanding keluarga sendiri. kita tidak akan sedar selagi kita biarkan diri kita hanyut. tiada niat untuk tuding jari kepada sesiapa hanya sekadar peringatan bersama.

it's difficult to know which second among a lifetime of seconds is more special. often when you realise how precious those seconds are, it's too late for them to be captured because the moment has passed. we realise too late. and when that happens there is no use of regret. have a good life people. appreciate every moment with your love ones =)

~ cHiLdHooD ~

" there is always one moment in childhood when the doors open and let the future in."- Deepak Chopra

After all this "growing up" I can honestly say I love swings... I can still recall the first time I learnt to swing by myself and that awesome butterfly feeling in my stomach. I think I've outgrown this particular swing though :p

It's funny the memories that stay with you through time and it's sad when I think of all the days in my life where I actually can't remember what I did or what my thoughts were. time passes so fast though. how I miss my childhood time- with no responsibility and full of innocence.

now I've come to my adulthood yet still with no maturity. I know I've to move on with no regrets. but the memory of childhood will still be alive as from there I learn to be who I am- a girl on her swing after fighting with the feeling of nervous. and I'll never GIVE UP.

p/s: ada sape2 mau me to push their swing? ;D

~ AkaN DiCaPai ~

2010 sudah bermula...azam baru pun dah ditetapkan...harap terlaksana...

hopes in education:
1) tak malas nak pergi kelas...nie niat pagi2 bangun tido asyik nak ponteng kelas jea.haish.

2) tak stress lagi dgn 1 subjek major nie.sangat kritikal dengan subjek nie.camne subjek nie boleh wujud (?_?)

3) pointer kena naik lagi...asyik statik jea... *memang laa tak naik klo asyik main2 ;p*

4) assingment.ape tips nak siapkan assingment awal2? nie habit selalu nak buat keje las minit.hehe

-setelah disenaraikan, rupanya sifat malas amat tebal dalam diri saya.ish3.

hopes in relationship:
1) harap dapat luang masa dengan family sangat2.mau pergi vacation sama2.huu...

2) dapat ronggeng dengan bff saya puas2.next year maybe dah jarang lepak2.

3) dapat kad jemputan kawen kawan2. mau makan nasi minyak.hehe

4) dengan busyuk2 saya, sangat harap saya dapat memahami kam000.

- social skill & relationship saya still perlu di 'upgrade' (@_@)

after all, this year is a fresh start for me. with new plans and new strategies in my life. I do hope this year akan jadi lebih bermakna dengan sweet and bad memories that will remain in my thought =))

# SELAMAT TAHUN BARU SEMUA #

p/s: baru jea bazirkan duit untuk shopping di hari pertama new year.haish.camne nak blaja bjimat nie.hee...