~ F.R.I.E.N.D.S ~

I'm finding that realization is so much more frustrating than never finding anything.

how often we wish we had stayed on the same path.
I disappear regularly, I lose contact regularly.
no one checks up on me and I like it that way.
I like to come and go as I please.

Yet now I realize something.
I miss my friends. a lot. but what's the reasons of the feeling?
we all get lost once in a while and busy with our own life...
sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control.
when we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself.
I regret because I do not contact my friends often enough, and I am really sorry for behaving like that...huu...just want you, who are my friends, know that our friendship still precious for me even I lack in my concern.

p/s: all of u will still be my bff even xde dlm gmba d bwh...n i juz realize that we hadn't take much pic.huhu

~ uNTiTLeD ~

life is not filled with satisfaction!

but only one thing that i request.

i just want to be understood??

is it so hard to do?

~ iF y0u c0uLd sEE mE n0w ~

life is funny, isn't it?

just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about it and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west and you're lost. it is so easy to lose your way, to lose direction.

there aren't many sure things in life, but one thing I do know is that you have to deal with the consequences of your actions. you have to follow through on some things.

I always give up. what have I ever had to do in my life that really needed to be done? I always had a choice, and I always took the easy way out- we always took the easy way out.

life is hard! so what? it's hard for everyone, isn't it? anyone who says it's easy is a liar. while for me I'm only find it terribly hard in 'relationship issues'. people tends to say soulmates always end up together. ex-girlfriends or boyfriends are easily forgotten. best friends stay with you forever.

can somebody proof to me that the statement is true? coz I really do hope so...

~ HeLL0 R0mAnTiC0 ~

11 Januari 2010 ( Isnin) - 11.45pm

waktu berpisah:-

gf: shafiq...thanks sangat2 ari nie...bye. (dengan nada gembira)

bf: wokeh. happy birthday. (tersenyum). eh...orang terjumpa kad tadi. ada tulis nama ila. (sambil hulur kad)

gf: ........................ (terkejut, terharu, senyum sorang2)

tiba- tiba dia bertindak romantik. impress. excited =))

even it's only a birthday card. means a lot to me. coz kad tersebut ditulis oleh orang tersayang. dengan rasa kasih sayang untuk orang tersayang.hehe. I really appreciate it dear busyuk2... boleh pulak buat innocence ea.hehe.x0x0 =D.

* tamat di sini ayat2 jiwang...heee.... * * bermula ayat2 serius =p *

apa ada pada 22 tahun???
usia sudah meningkat, tapi perangai masih macam budak- budak. as my age increases, i think the more childish i've become.apa boleh buat?hehe.

sekarang saya sudah mula untuk think about future seriously. about my education, my relationship, my LIFE. only one thing that always disturb me- my self confidence! saya selalu terfikir, boleh ke saya teruskan? boleh ke saya capai impian?

but now, i know i have to make a good decision. i've always thought that things aren't going to be fair in the real world. even if karma happenned. it's just the way it is. sometimes fate just can't stop meddling. there are some people that can achieve bright future without doing much but some, like me have to fight well in achieving good life.

this year, i just hold on to this principle, "do not afraid of life, follow your instinct, and be yourself!" and that really give me a boost of strength. I didn't see it coming, but I can definitely feel it. I long for the strength.

p/s: also need prayer from all =))

~ HiDDeN ~

men are very weak
they make principle but dun realize dat no principle can override the heart
n we remind these stubborn men that bonds of the heart are based on feelings n not principles
but these bonds are created by telling the other person bout one's inner feelings

however sumtimes saying wat one feels can break one's heart
but by not saying it,u won't be happy
so wat're we supposed to do...

~ AkaN DiCaPai ~

2010 sudah bermula...azam baru pun dah ditetapkan...harap terlaksana...

hopes in education:
1) tak malas nak pergi kelas...nie niat pagi2 bangun tido asyik nak ponteng kelas jea.haish.

2) tak stress lagi dgn 1 subjek major nie.sangat kritikal dengan subjek nie.camne subjek nie boleh wujud (?_?)

3) pointer kena naik lagi...asyik statik jea... *memang laa tak naik klo asyik main2 ;p*

4) assingment.ape tips nak siapkan assingment awal2? nie habit selalu nak buat keje las minit.hehe

-setelah disenaraikan, rupanya sifat malas amat tebal dalam diri saya.ish3.

hopes in relationship:
1) harap dapat luang masa dengan family sangat2.mau pergi vacation sama2.huu...

2) dapat ronggeng dengan bff saya puas2.next year maybe dah jarang lepak2.

3) dapat kad jemputan kawen kawan2. mau makan nasi minyak.hehe

4) dengan busyuk2 saya, sangat harap saya dapat memahami kam000.

- social skill & relationship saya still perlu di 'upgrade' (@_@)

after all, this year is a fresh start for me. with new plans and new strategies in my life. I do hope this year akan jadi lebih bermakna dengan sweet and bad memories that will remain in my thought =))

# SELAMAT TAHUN BARU SEMUA #

p/s: baru jea bazirkan duit untuk shopping di hari pertama new year.haish.camne nak blaja bjimat nie.hee...