~ LeT y0u kNoW ~

I guess between things and people, the former are easier to possess.

but then we might lost the thing or misplaced it.

while for people, we will never misplace them.

because we know they were there.

but it could be that the feeling might not be the same. 

anymore.

so Dear ***3055,

for all this while...

THOUGHT YOU ALWAYS BE MINE ~

~ eMoTioNs ~

I feel annoyed when people interfere in my life while I never mingle with their matters.

I feel disturbed when people do not tell the truth .

I feel insecure when people stay away from me.

I feel unsettled when I lost my feelings for him.

I feel uneasy when my loved ones are in pain.

I feel lonely when I think about myself.

I feel empty when I forget about Him.

but I pray He will remember me :)

~ a GIRL not yet a WOMAN ~

this few weeks, I went through my life as a different person. no more gossiping cerita- cerita sensasi with my babes, no more hang out with loved ones. no more ordinary routine. my life was dull & empty.

kenapa ini terjadi? diri pun tidak tahu. semua berlaku secara tiba-tiba. kini diri hanya bertemankan monolog dalaman. sendiri. mungkin itu lebih baik. atau mungkin tidak.

perempuan, girl, women memang kompleks dan makhluk yang penuh dengan emosi. yes! that makes us unique yet complicated because even we, ourselves can't understand what we really need.

cuma harap orang akan faham diri memang sesukar itu.

~ No Lies...jUst LOVE ~

dalam relationship, kalau tak ada challenges tak 'cool' kan?

orang cakap dalam banyak- banyak kesakitan, sakit hati sebab cinta yang paling sakit. now I've come to that understanding. in a relationship, every girl has that one boy in their life that has been there for them the whole time. she makes real conversation and feels real love. then they will be together and live happily. now I doubt that. It seems when you want someone, they don't want you. And when someone wants you, you don't want them. And when you both want each other, something has to come around and mess it up. or to be more accurate someone will come and bring back the past sweet memories.

cinta pertama sukar dilupakan. coz no matter how much the boy promised you. " I sayang u jea sampai bila-bila" or "let's just forget bout our past and be happy together k", he'll never be able to forget his first love and the memories will be recalled back sometimes. so, how lucky of you to be someone's first love.

but then I do realize that all the best love stories have one thing in common:
You have to go against the odds to get there. no matter how hard or rough the situation is.

i do hope i've enough courage to hang on. just... maybe single is better sometimes.

* awk, jadi mcm byg2 nie slalu nak ;p *

~ uNTiTLeD ~

life is not filled with satisfaction!

but only one thing that i request.

i just want to be understood??

is it so hard to do?

~ H0pE d SkY iS aLwAyS bLuE ~

twinkle twinkle little stars

I always prefer to look at the sky when I have bad feelings about my life.The sky is so wide, the moon and the stars just make me feel better.How great the creations of God.

Life without problems is not cool right?So I guess I have to bear with all the troubles that are competing to rush into my life.Yet, the most troublesome dilemma is when it is related with your feelings.How could I ignore others' feelings?Can I be that selfish?Just thinking of it makes me feel guilty.

My father used to tell me that memory is a good thing to be remembered, either it was the good one or the bad one.But papa, your daughter is not strong enough to bear with all of the memories in her life.I try hard to delete all the bad memories in my mind.I wish I have a quite large and enough space of dustbin to dispose all the memories.How fool I am to think something like that.But I know I actually have to learn from the bad memories.For better future.So that I will never repeat the same mistakes again.Thanks for your advice papa.Your daughter understands the situation now =)

To my Soulmate, sorry for giving you a lot of troubles. I know I have to understand you better. I need to be more mature person.How childish I am right?And I have to struggle hard to maintain this feeling towards you.Saya masih bertahan dear.

Sekarang, listening to Love You Yes-Couple::while looking at the sky::finish this entry.Now I feel relieve and great.

Hope the night sky will always been occupied by the moon and the stars ;D

~ a GOOD day ~

i hate rude people...especially girls...

kenapa perempuan susah nak kawal emosi???
bila tau boyfren rapat dengan perempuan lain jea terus nak gaduh2 tanpa usul periksa.
dan tak pasal2 jea perempuan tu kena tuduh yang bukan2, semua kesalahan diletakkan atas perempuan tu...kenapa boyfren tak kena tuduh juga???

kenapa perempuan bila jatuh cinta sanggup berkorban apa saja demi boyfren???
sampai ada yang tak jaga maruah sendiri, sampai ada yang sanggup ketepikan famili dan sanggup keluarkan kata2 kesat pada siapa2 yang menghalang hubungan itu.
dan ada juga yang sanggup putus kawan hanya kerana kawan itu rapat dengan boyfren.

if u think that everybody around u is a loser, u should think about urself too...
u have make a sin just by not being fair and illogical to others.
why don't u ponder for a moment what have u done towards your family, frens, lover and most important to your God. and what have they sacrifice to u in their life???
life should not be complicated and we should appreciate it every moment.
by not losing it to evil whispers that can lead us to the wrong path in life ;))

~ L0neLy iS mY fRiEnD ~

i never thought that i will feel this feeling.at this moment.
3:05am...i try to sleep.but it's hard.
LONELY...
seems lyke he has found me.maybe he wants me to accompany him tonite.
but y he came so sudden???
how i hate the way he makes me feel.and how i try to make him leave.
i try...and... i try...
DEAR lonely,can't u juz go away???i'm not a good companion...

have u ever feel that there's no one u can hold on...
even though u have many great supporters...
n suddenly u feel lyke to shed tears...
but they juz won't fall down...
i try to fight d loneliness...but he's there in the dark.he's there in my heart.in myself.
i am fine for a while.but i start to lose control.bcoz he keep growing around me.

i think i need to be more optimistic.and have a really good rest...
an enjoyable vacation maybe...
a great escape...
i know i should

~ tAkE mE t0 d sTaRs ~

i olwez hide sumthing from u...
i olwez tell lies to u...
but u never understand it
i really didn't mean it...

i had bad bad days rite now...
u dunnoe how miserable am i
ma fault to let them go on u
boo to maself...

wish to go to a peaceful place...
take a deep breath n enjoy d scenery of nature...
i wanna look at d stars...
n realize dat d sky is sooo beautiful...
i wanna enjoy d juicy n tastiness of ice-cream...
n donuts...
do bring peace n calm to mE...

p/s: can't wait dis saturday =D

~ iGn0Re mE...bUt d0n't LeAvE mE ~

i dun want to meet u...
i dun want to text u...
i dun want to call u...
I THINK WE NEED A GAP...

it's juz only for a reason...
and will olwez be 4 dat reason...

DO IGNORE ME...

~ s0rrY seems 2 be d cmplicated word ~

it's my fault...
for being emotional
it's my fault...
for being selfish
it's my fault...
for being ungrateful
it's my fault...
for not being rational


from all above...i juz wanna say sowry 4 having dat characteristics n keep repeating d same mistakes n make u feel annoyed...for i'm hardly comfort u...

i'm jUst bEinG sTuPiD...

~ SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa eBriBaDi =D ~

time passes so fast...
da 1 Syawal pun...
ry itu mmg sonok...
sayu jea tyme dgr takbir ry...
tp tetibe br tpikir...

dterime ke pose kali nie...
dterime ke amalan yg da wat kali nie...
every person can't run in making sins kn...
da brape byk r sins yg da wat...ish3...
then...
mule r regret 4 not making dis Ramadhan a beneficial month...
but i noe sume 2 bkn kte yg dcide kn...
so i pray really hard 4 me n also others...
dat may our deeds in dis Ramadhan will be accepted...
who knows whether there'll be another Ramadhan 4 us kn...
i hope we have thousand chances of Ramadhan lg...insyaAllah...

neway...
ry taon nie tetibe tringat sgt kt ma bff yg kt oversea..huhu...
*mish u so much...cpt r pulang... (T_T)*
ish3...ry2 pun mao sdey ka????
aiyoh...huhu
juz wanna wish...

*SELAMAT HARI RAYE...MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN...0-0 K (^_^)*